24th April 2022

So, things in Nellieland went a little bit off the rails. As well as the aftermath of the COVID infection, not long after my last blog post, the psychologist I am currently seeing to help with my anxiety and anger around the whole pandemic thing dropped a wee bit of a bomb that has both rocked my world but helped tremendously in understanding why I’m the way I am. I probably have ADHD. For the longest time, almost 30 years to be precise, I thought I’d been tested for…

8th March 2022

So, to add to the neverending fuckery I posted about in my last entry, my husband got COVID a week ago. I still don’t know if I also had COVID because I kept testing negative on my self-tests, and on the day I had a PCR booked, I was in a metric fuckton of pain and wasn’t able to actually physically go to get it. Two days later, and I am no longer symptomatic (at least, no more than what’s normal for me as someone with chronic illnesses).

26th February 2022

My week began full of optimism and motivation to get shit done. I was blogging again. I had every bit of faith in myself to have my podcast launched by the date I’d set (March 15th). I had finally moved past the imposter syndrome I was suffering when it came to my design and development skills to start offering them to others for money. I was finding a way through this pandemic. Things were looking up. But then fuckin’ Putin. I don’t even need to say what the asshole did. You already know. I’m getting real fuckin’ tired of finally getting somewhere…

19th February 2022

In mid-December last year, I clicked on a recommended video on YouTube that had a screenshot of what looked like an 80s fitness instructor. I’m still not sure what possessed me to do it (probably the colour!), but two months later, I’m freakin’ obsessed with Eskimo Callboy. The video I clicked on was for their song Pump It, which they had entered into consideration for the German selection for the 2022 Eurovision Song Contest. Despite the strong possibility it had of winning with the success of other heavier, rockier songs doing well last year…

18th February 2022

I didn’t want to start a new blog with such a heavy topic, but if writing about it is going to help me let it go, then that’s what I’ve gotta do! Welcome to NxA, now listen to me complain about the country I desperately want to love unconditionally while it’s doing the absolute most to make sure I don’t. I promise there’ll be fun stuff here too. S and I moved to the Netherlands in 2016. He has been eligible to become a Dutch citizen or permanent resident for a year now, but I had a very unfortunate two-week residency gap due to…

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